Had first of two sessions with backup T. Met in her office this time, which was less awkward for me than Ts office. Mostly talked about my drinking, as addiction is one of her areas of expertise. She had me describe what it felt like when I was going to get a beer, opening it, and having first sip. Was rather enlightening, as some of the relief/relaxation happens before I even take a sip. So much of it is psychological. And I have it within myself to create those feelings without alcohol. My assignment before Thursday when I see her is to observe what I’m feeling/thinking when I want a drink, am getting one, and first have it.

We did get to make fun of a comment my T had said at one point, which was kind of a bonding moment. She was like, “he can be pretty blunt!” I think with his being away it sort of helps to talk to someone else who knows him.

Also, she said I should be a therapist.