Thanks for your reply, and your response was very kind. I have managed to put off harming myself today (it's 9.30pm here now). I convinced myself that the mental health team wanted me to jump, so I determined I wasn't going to, I guess that's my child part lol. On the way home I did buy medication but as you are limited as to how much you can buy here, it wasn't worth taking. I haven't slept for 2 days now, so I'm hoping o can get some sleep tonight and see what tomorrow brings.