I hope that I'm not sounding like a broken record but I've been feeling off these past few weeks due to some triggers of negative emotions that have been left unresolved. There has always seemed to be a pressure cooker where I live to follow the crowd by rushing into the dating and marriage asap. Because of failed attempts and my current transitions keeping up with the needs of another person is next to impossible. I also believe people are rigid to the point where if you don't follow a very specific "checklist" of their desires and needs, prepare for people to bail out as soon as possible. Plus I have enjoyed so many of my hobbies alone as a singleton without following the agenda that comes with frequently being around a partner. But the continued pressure arising from the death of my uncle (leaving me the last one possible to share my last name), continued conversations from my BFF about the opposite gender against my will and constant SM posts about my friends’ romantic success is about to blow my top off. IRL people have not been very supportive emotionally with this concern. My future life is going to be one massive failure because half of the world's population is female thus increasing my chances in the professional world and my personal life that I will be chastised for little mistakes or failed expectations.

Again I believe there are so many perks about singleness that outnumber the perks of romance in my stage of life but I get short-fused with society’s stigma against singles and pressure to date. What should I do to fully take advantage of the positives of my singleness and live my own life?