I just got off the phone with my insurance disability plan, and they're potentially going to refuse my claim because of two little words on the form. I'm not currently seeing a counselor, and I'm on referral to a new psychiatrist's office, and in the meantime I don't have a counselor to see, so they may declare I'm not following the prescribed medical treatment regimen because I'm not seeing a therapist that I currently don't ****ing have! Even just talking to these people on the phone turns me into a wreck. And even if I wasn't prescribed therapy, I still wouldn't be capable of working, because I'm not supposed to work (or operate machinery, or drive a car, etc.) until I've been seizure free for six months.

How am I supposed to see a therapist that I haven't yet been referred to? Am I supposed to just will myself into a therapist's office?