Welcome to PC angel. I am sorry you are struggling so much right now but am glad you found us. I hope that sharing helped you feel better. Depression can be so hard. I am sorry your friends don't understand.

SI is a way to cope and that is what you are trying to do. It seems you are feeling distress about this. You may want to also post in our SI forum where you might find some extra support.

Glad you are with us.

BB