I spoke to kay and she and I came to the conclusion that an added med to my cocktail might be just the ticket to stability.
Gabapenton(neurontin)_not sure if I spelled either of these names correctly.
I will write my pdoc tonight. and request her guidance.

I am still drinking too much and have stalled in my day to day activities.
I keep ignoring my billing....hate the paper work part of my job,
and charting and filing...
sigh
I meet with my sponsor tomorrow night...Carol
My new book came in...will give it to her.
A woman's way thru the 12 steps.
She agreed to go thru this book with me

as opposed to the big book...which was written in the 30's.

AM feeling stagnant with my addictions. Alcohol, internet, food, picking sigh all ocd type behaviors.

Between drinking, stopping off at fat pats after work for a few beers. then coming home after picking up some sparking flavored waters, spiked no less. I went to the pharmacy and asked to see if good rx could give me some savings on my prescriptions. yes I saved $60 total. Came home and realized that I picked up a med that had been discontinued but since I came home with it they can not take it back. sigh
wasted money....but I saved money so it evened out. I was still ahead.

WE have been watching Downton Abby and loving it. The movie comes out in the fall, looking forward to that!
WE try to watch one episode a night...we are on season 5 there are 6 seasons.

I need to figure out my day tomorrow. Have 4-5 people to see.
life is good.
and a gift....
need to work on appreciating my life.
bizi