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Originally Posted by atisketatasket
For some people—I’m one of them—regular routine does help. But I don’t know that that’s for everyone. Does it normally help you?
The thing with stopping sh is something has to replace it—either things get better or there’s some other activity.
I’d find the concerns about dating and drinking off-putting. It’s like worrying about a leak in the boat when you might be about to hit an iceberg.
Maybe you’re being obedient because you feel like he’s a lifeline you need right now?
Do you work today?  |
Routine does help me, though when work gets really intense that can be a problem too. (Like, 40 hours a week is helpful; 80 hours a week in a hectic ICU is not.)
That’s part of what’s nagging at me regarding the SH issue—he’s basically saying “stop that” without suggesting some alternative action. It isn’t that bloody simple. I mean I’ve looked at all the lists of stuff to do instead of SH (like draw on your arm with a red pen or whatever) but none of that stuff “does it” for me.
I’m not exactly off today, but in the morning I had “administrative time” (time to do paperwork that has built up during the week and call patients with results and stuff) and in the afternoon I have didactics but I’m skipping them because I have a psychiatrist appt right in the middle and the psych hospital is a long way away. I should have spent the whole morning out of the house but I just couldn’t and spent the last few hours in bed. T will be disappointed or maybe scold me for that if he finds out.
I hate that I need him. I abhor it.