I am still really upset about what happened with mc yesterday. I talked to h about it last night, and h and the t are of the thought that I wasn’t getting what I wanted in the session, so I threw a fit basically.

That is not at all why I left.. I was sitting in the room with two men, who would not listen to what I was saying. Two men decided the direction of that session.. and the t acknowledged that I felt unsafe, and could tell I was feeling something (I was triggered at this point). But mc just went on, down a path I told him I couldn’t go down that day.

The t apparently told my h that he had never had a client walk out on him before. Which I find hard to believe. Maybe, he meant that early on in a session, or that early on in their work together. He also told h that maybe another t would work better. At the end (h stayed a little while after I left) the t offered to reschedule with h alone and not for the both of us. So, I guess he doesn’t want to work with me? Though I am not sure.. what a train wreck.