I know I am still decompressing from everything with my son. I am getting extra hours at work, which I need to pay for T but more and more I am not wanting to go into work. I used to love my job. I’m not sure if it is the current politics and a new hire that drives me nuts or if it just feels different now that I am feeling better about myself. Today I interview for a higher, full time position but truth be told I am not sure I want it. I am waiting on some ID paperwork I had to replace before I can look at new jobs. But then there is a part of me that wants to take two weeks off and clean my house/start life over... but I can’t with the current job and wouldn’t be able to afford T. H is trying to be supportive but is having a hard time keeping up with all the mood/personality shifts. My son was already seriously struggling when H and I met so H hasn’t really seen me without the stress of son. H is also afraid that now that my options are wide open I am going to leave him.
I just want to rest, clean and hang out with T.