I've only been manic once but it was pure hell. I was delusional. I had visual and auditory hallucinations. I was paranoid. I was agitated and physically out of control. I screamed. I whispered. I repeated things. I babbled. I had spiritual experiences. I shattered objects. I dissociated. I experienced time in an altered way. I blacked out a lot of the time. It continued like this for a few hours and then I had to be dragged from my home and drugged. It stopped almost instantly after they gave me what I can only assume was haldol in the hospital. There was no high. Only Hell.
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