Hello all. I hope everyone is well.

I graduated with my degree in mental health counseling and I have been trying to find a job that will give me my mental health counseling license. The issue is that no one wants to train people anymore. You have to start working immediately after you get hired. It's like there's no training period anymore.

The job I have now is stressing me out. It's like the employers want to suck the life out of us and the micromanagement is ridiculous. I honestly DO feel like the life is being drained out of my body. I hate it there. I'm grateful for the money because I get to help out my mom by being more independent but my sanity is taking a major hit. I can't quit because I have expenses to pay and who knows when I'll find another job?

It sucks. Society tells you to go to school, get a degree and then you'll get a job, but that's not true. I am losing hope in my becoming a counselor because I cannot find a job that is willing to train new counselors. It also doesn't help that I don't think I want to be a counselor anymore. I am a peer on a crisis hotline and it is getting too intense for me. This job really messed me up. I'm finding myself becoming colder and less empathic and that's not me. I'm not that kind of person but it's made my patience run thinner and thinner. I don't know what to do.

I am just extremely stressed out. How are any of us supposed to live happy lives when we're forced to do work we do not want to do? How are we supposed to be happy when we're surviving but not living just because we have a horrible job that has horrible pay? How are we supposed to be happy when we are forced to stay late at our job? What was the point of me getting this damn degree anyway if it is not helping me?

I'm angry. I'm furious. I'm tired.

Thank you for reading this.