I had a couple of arguments with my wife.

She wants to get some work done around the house and I'm indifferent to the ideas. She says I don't show any joy about, or interest in the projects. She says she's happy for me when I do stuff and wants the same in return.

It's hard to pretend to be happy when I have been depressed for 19 months now. And it feels so insincere when I do fake it and I just don't have the interest to do that. So instead we argue about why I'm not happy.

Would have been easier to fake it.