You've come to the right place, @Woody5000! You'll find PLENTY of people to support you here. You've said that you're going to see a therapist and that's good. Although perhaps you may want to see one right away instead of waiting? Either way, I respect your decision as sure you have your own reasons to do that! I'm REALLY HAPPY that you have a True Friend who is going to listen to you as well! Having a support system IRL is REALLY important. Please take good care of yourself. I also don't think that being able to control your emotions is is ANY WAY related to you being Evil, but I guess a Professional will be able to guide you through that. Please keep posting if you wish to and feel free to PM me ANYTIME when you need that! I'm sure PLENTY of others will help you out as well! Sending many safe, warm hugs to you, your Family, your Friends and ALL of your Loved Ones! PLEASE KEEP FIGHTING AND KEEP ROCKING AS MUCH AS YOU POSSIBLY CAN LIKE YOU'RE ALREADY WONDERFULLY DOING! YOU'RE AWESOME AND YOU MATTER! THAT'S A PROMISE AND THAT'S ABSOLUTELY TRUE! PLEASE BELIEVE THAT AS MUCH AS YOU POSSIBLY CAN BECAUSE IT IS ABSOLUTELY THE TRUTH!