Thanks for sharing this. I recall replying to the previous post you provided a link for. I don't know if you've been receiving any kind of therapy services. But, from what I understand of your struggle, I wondered if you are familiar with
Exposure Response Prevention Therapy (ERP). If not here are links to 2 articles, from PC's archives, on the subject:

Exposure and Response Prevention Therapy for OCD

ERP Therapy – Where are you?