T today was rough. She had texted that she cared about me. It sent me into a tailspin. Care is a dangerous word to me and I never need to hear it I told her that. She responded that she does care about me. I explained that "doubling down" on her text wasnt helpful and all the reasons I find it scary. She started saying something that sound like she was going to repeat it

Well I covered my ears. Not grown up and told her I literally wasnt going to listen to it. She took that pretty seriously and said she would leave it at she cares about her job. So I wouldnt feel so threatened.

I want to nap but staring at 8 hrs of work.