T is on a trip with family this weekend and away for business next week. This is the first week since we started working together that I haven’t called or emailed (I can actually do self care with son gone). But now T has me crying even though he isn’t here. The last email I sent I started to admit that I am attached and afraid of leaving him (whenever that may be, we are nowhere close). I said I was trying to keep in mind that he said he wouldn’t hurt or reject me and that Fr and I do OK even though neither one of us are at the same church any more. Well, T and H have a shared interest that has a lot of events/gatherings around here. T said he might come to the one next door to where I worked. I asked him to let me know because I would like to see him (seeing as it is public) he was surprised I was really interested but he is OK with it. Then later T said by the way, if you go often look for ****** he is there a lot and I think you would like him. So, I can be a little daft. Not only is T OK with this overlap between our personal and professional lives but he is kinda inviting me into the community... so there would be a natural way to see him a few times a year even after we terminated.
‘scuse me while my little attachment disordered self goes and cries.....