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As a bipolar person especially, I need to pay very close attention to all the things that contribute to or detract from a stable brain chemistry. Nutrition is a big deal. If a mood swinger never embraces a moderate level of vigilance over their nutrition, no amount of medication or therapy has a chance of alleviating those swings. Or at least there would always be the compromise of diminished benefit to any success. I don't know if low blood sugar would induce an abiding psychotic state so to speak, but i am aware that it can induce psychotic symptoms like paranoia, auditory and visual hallucinations. Clicking on tabs on this site would be more informative about psychosis than anything I could probably say. LOL.

Ultimately, the only success I've had with living with this, BP stuff, had primarily to do with accepting that to a degree, this is the deal. My brain is like this. Some things aren't a good idea for me to get involved in which others may do routinely. Much of the life I created for myself prior to dx, was altogether unsustainable. As desperately as I believed that I needed to preserve every precious aspect of it, most of it was bad for me. I wouldn't have given up any of it, but my breakdown was sufficient in severity and duration to insure that I was spared the agony of choosing which treasure to jettison next. By the time I looked up it was all gone. LOL.

I'm rambling again, aargh, and I apologize. In parting, for some reason I want to say, each worst case scenario that I ever anticipated as being the thing I would likely not survive turned out to be the best thing that ever happened. Irony is the packaging the truth comes in.

I should probably finish my coffee before I do this, huh?

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You really impress me. Even though in the beginning I fought my dx, it didn't take me long to accept it because there simply is no choice, it is what it is and no amount of wishful thinking is going to make it go away, no matter how hard I try. Old habits die hard and self-discipline has never been one of my strong suits. Eating healthy has always been difficult for me and I know my GP is concerned about that and that is why he sic'd Dracula on me last month to draw my blood. He knows I have a huge phobia to blood tests and I'm sure that's why he had her hiding in the wings, ready to catch her prey with the element of surprise. Included in the tests was to check if my body is lacking any nourishments. If can't imagine that the test will come back all that great but otoh, it can't be frightening either since he hasn't called me. I see him this Friday and I will find out then what the actual results are.

Since that blood test, my eating habits have deteriotated immencely. I attribute Wellbutrin to be the cause because it happened at the same time. Most days I have to force myself to eat anything at all and some days I don't even do that much. My GP is not aware of that, since it all happened after my last appt with him. I see him once monthly so he can keep close tabs on me. I know he is greatly concerned about me and hospitalization has been threatened several times. To me, that is the worst thing that could happen to me. Even when I was extremely suicidal, I would never go the hospital. I just don't want to be an inmate and the mere possibility of being locked up, scares the hell out of me. Well, looks like I too have digressed. Do you think this is a BP trait and how about rambling, I do both so easily and also quick change of topics. These usually drive people crazy? jk

Anyway, back to topic at hand, I wasn't aware that nutrition played much of a role in our mental health. I guess I'll have to give it more serious attention but as I said, part of it, or least all of it now, is due to my Wellbutrin. Since I need to lose weight, I've been seeing this as a bonus. Thanks for the info. Very much appreciated. Hope you enjoyed your coffee, I am drinking my Diet Pepsi, my current addiction.

Oh, I almost forgot, I've been dealing with paranoia since 2001.