I had a tough day. Bringing my son to a different city, and he wont let me see where he's living. He did say to come back soon and visit, and he needs more things from here. He did let me know he is ok tonight.

I tried applying for 2 jobs today, so I should be proud that I tried. I also went to a friends parents, they are aging and the caregiving is getting too much for the daughter that does it. It's hard to see them age and I feel like they are being forced out of their home. There's nothing I can do about it.

I did get to see a beach today, but someone made the time a bit miserable, maybe I should blame myself. I sure don't like my own personality, but how can I change after all these years? Just be more quiet I think. I should listen to Eckhart for a bit.