Moving this weekend. I have some friends helping me with furniture tomorrow, but other than that doing most of it myself. It's just a studio and I don't have that much stuff, but it always seems like more than I remember when I try to move. Worked for 8 hours already and got most boxes moved. I am proud of myself, although I hope this doesn't set me back in physical therapy. I sort of did more than I should have I think. A good workout though! Now I am eating a burrito before I start cleaning. I needed to rest and refuel. I like my new place, though. It's more open and I think I could have friends over. I am feeling pretty happy right now, but in the back of my mind are thoughts telling me I am a bad person and that every time I am nice I am just being fake and it's an act. I need to just not engage with these thoughts I guess? They are annoying and tiring, why do I have to keep getting sucked into this? Also I have noticed when I come across something (perhaps a picture or whatever) that reminds me of a time when I was in a bad place, perhaps depression and OCD thoughts were bad, that it kind of triggers a memory of that feeling. Does anyone else experience something like this I wonder?
Hope everyone's having a nice weekend, I will catch up with posts once I am done running around.