I completely understand how you feel..I was diagnosed at 30 ,I'm now 38 ..I feel exhausted and tired of fighting this evil illness (bipolar2 and bpd)..I have messed up my life many of times and I cant count how many times I have started over..been on many medications none have worked or couldnt handle the side effects..I dont have an answer for you..I guess I just get up every day and keep fighting cause I have 3 children to fight for..I can imagine its alot harder for you being so young...but it's TRUE you do have something to fight for it's you..life will get better and worse and then better..I'm starting therapy and reluctantly taking horrible meds and starting over yet again..I dont know you hun..but try therapy ..try anything that might help and keep fighting ..your not alone and things will get better ...