Well it's really not the actual drugs that scare me. It the not knowing what is going on and feeling out of control.

I've never had a bad experience or reaction to anesthesia but still it terrifies me. I've been fortunate in that I've been able to undergo procedures awake that usually require at least some type of sedation.

Maybe I am strange. I hear from many people that they would rather be knocked out and not know what is happening. Not me. I have an extremely high tolerance for all things medical and would rather watch.

At the end of next month I may in in the position of having to make a choice about a surgical procedure. It would be an elective procedure but one that will potentially improve my quality of life. I know little about it or how it is done. Right now I am feeling like if it requires general anesthesia I want no part of it. Everything I have read about it says yes, so should I even spend the money to see the doctor?

I want to have an open mind but it is so difficult for me to do.