My pdoc put me back on 150 mg of Wellbutrin for depression. Ever since I got the flu after my father died, I've fallen to a pretty low state. I got the flu the day after my sister got my son to secretly interrogate my mental state at a dinner we had together. He eventually spilled the beans and told me she had suggested I needed to be hospitalized to him and made him promise not to tell me her thoughts. It was all because I disagreed with her about something related to the estate of my father. She had sworn him to secrecy. And she did not raise any objections with me... it was all through my son.

Just before my father died, my best friend at the time dumped me on an outing we had together when she got a phone call to go be with another friend that day. After that I haven't seen or talked to her again.

I've also stopped going to my Emotions Anonymous meetings and my self care has slipped.

I've had very negative thoughts about almost everything, so I am hoping the Wellbutrin will help me reach a better state. Even if I am lonely there is no reason to make myself sad and upset and worried.

I am isolating at home too.