[QUOTE=MoxieDoxie;6474320]I can not want scars as I wear short sleeves as a personal trainer so I bash my head when overwhelmed or turning anger back onto me.

I have never self harmed because of an empty feeling. I self harmed because of overwhelming emotions that my system can not handle.[/

I don’t self harm much anymore but I used to take a brush and whack my leg until it got red. It was a sharp stinging pain and I liked seeing the red. For me was not a release as much as I liked pain because I felt so bad about myself.