If I don't have a pdoc I don't get meds. I don't really know how bad things get off meds considering I've never been off meds and sober for more than a few days. Last time I was hospitalized, but that's only because the IOP I was in couldn't handle me and sent me there. I was also smoking weed at the time which probably contributed to the psychosis. I have a therapist, but I don't know if I like her yet because we've only had two sessions so far. I honestly think I'll be better off without these moronic pdocs in my life.