I am trying to figure out how to verbalize my thoughts on my experience when talking to my T about what it is like to talk about traumatic events, especially ones that carry the baggage of repressed feelings.

I feel like I am typically a pretty rational person and I think I read people well. But when dealing with deeply traumatic stories in therapy I lose myself.

I think that I start to interpret everything my T does in a negative way and I get terrible vibes from him while talking about certain things and it just doesn't seems to match my experience with him otherwise.

Typically, hours or days after the session, when I reflect on what happened I start to see how my mental state colored our interaction and I can see some of the ways that my perceptions were off.

I want to describe it like I enter an altered state of consciousness. Does anyone relate to that? Does that sound like a reasonable way to describe that experience?