While my regular T was out of town for 2 months over last winter I hired a therapist on Betterhelp.com so that I could keep up the habit while he was gone.


She tried EMDR when I told her about a sexual trauma from my childhood and I really didn't like it. I was supposed to watch the event in my head like a movie play it forwards backward, upside down, and inject humorous things into the image, while moving my eyes around. It felt ridiculous.


I have developmental issues that stem from these events. Reprogramming my mind to interpret them as funny or just desensitizing me to the reality of them I don't feel is a helpful strategy.


I had a skewed sense of my life, and I feel better the more I learn about my truth. I want to see it for what it really was, learn how it shaped me, and use that knowledge as a new foundation for my life that I can grow from.

If it does something for others then that is great, but for me.. GAH I hated it!