I realized from a couple of friends’ posts that today (August 4th) is a Sister’s Day in Canada and the US. I never heard of it before and wish didn’t see their happy messages on Facebook. Their happy messages triggered anxiety in me as it reminded me of all the things that my sister used to do to me. I am not seeing my T for another week.

People don’t realize how scary it is to live with an abusive sibling since the victim lives with the sibling constantly and you have no where to escape. If I went home and my parents were out, I knew she would beat the crap out of me and then bully me. If she had friends over, I knew she would beat me up in front of them to show them who was the boss. If my cousins were over or we were at their house, she would beat me up. People thought it was funny as I was the brother and she was the sister, which made me feel very inadequate and embarrassed.

I try not to see her these days but have to see her few times a year for family functions. When I see her, I am still scared of her. It has been many years since I got my last beating , but I still watch everything I say in front of her to make sure I don’t offend her. I have worked with my T on how to say no her but everything goes out the door when I see her.

Hope others have a better Sunday!