Hi, I would like to ask if some of you record your sessions with your therapist and then listen to them again

I do this as a method to put some order to all things discussed in therapy, making topics for next sessions, etc.

I've been seeing a new therapist for a couple of months

The thing is: When listening to one of the sessions recorded, I hear my therapist saying the word "horrible" between the explanation that this person is giving me.

I know this sounds kinda crazy. Let me elaborate some more

I have a seriously low self-esteem and i'm a "little" paranoid sometimes. I give too much importance to what other people think.

Besides, while T is talking, I break eye contact. It would appear that, during this moment, my attention decreases somehow

I told my therapist that i'm afraid of being heard talking about my issues. T was talking a little loud and I mentioned it

Little after that, T was normally explaining something to me. Listening to the recording it sounds like, when T is moving from one sentence to another, drops the word "horrible" in between them without me noticing it.
My guess is that, at that point, i looked away and wasn't paying attention for a second. I don't remember breaking eye contact nor hearing that word

A couple of sessions further, T was speaking to me. A horn outside makes me divert my attention. For a very brief moment, I hear something like "Stupid". It is hard to hear it well, and i'm not so sure about this one like the previous case.

Has something like this ever happened to you?

Is my T hostile to me, without me noticing it?

What would you do? I would really like your feedback.

Thanks and sorry for making the thread so long