T has brought up several things in session that he worries have made me angry but I might be afraid to bring up. Things like how often he is out of the office, not always having the same time slot for me, not answering every single email I send (he did promise to read all of them), and several others. He seemed kinda surprised when I said that Winnicott always resonated with me with his talk of the good enough parent... that T is a good enough T for me.
He is real with me
He cares
He wants me to feel safe in session
He is nurturing
He uses appropriate touch with me
He is very experienced in working with trauma
He is attuned to me and my needs
He is sensitive
He is open to my sometimes crazy ideas
He shares relevant personal information with me
He just does a lot of things right.

I know he worries that I am not telling him when I am angry with him. In all fairness he knows I don’t like anger, especially my own. But he does have quirks that bug me... he was picking his teeth once in session, he doesn’t tuck his shirts in during the summer (he does in the winter though). He is a tad OCD. Sometimes he gets into what we are talking about and ends up in a monologue monopolizing the conversation. But they aren’t deal breakers or anything worth fussing over.

Am I idealizing him? Does there have to be ruptures in therapy? Can therapists be human in session or only after work??? Am I just an odd client? I don’t get why he is so worried I am angry. I told him he was good enough T for me and he truly looked perplexed. I know he is familiar with Winnicott.