I can't answer your question about what this may precisely be, AltruisticTrout, as I'm not a medical expert. Just wanted to let you know that I'm here for you and that I've read ALL of what you wrote. I am DEEPLY SORRY that you're hurting so much, my dear, sweet friend! I am REALLY HAPPY to hear that you've decided to contact your Doctor and get some help. That is the right thing to do. Hopefully she'll be able to help you. I don't think she'll be disappointed once she hears what you've been dealing with and how much have you been struggling. It'd be hard for ANYONE, after all! Be honest with her like you've always been and hopefully things will start to improve. One day at the time, one step at the time. Remember to take baby steps. You've got this. I know you do. Please be kind to yourself. You're worth it. Your Life is worth it. Things CAN and WILL get better. Just keep trying and let's hope for the BEST outcome, ok? Sending many safe, warm hugs to BOTH you and ALL of your Dear Kind Loved Ones, @AltruisticTout! PLEASE KEEP FIGHTING AND KEEP ROCKING AS MUCH AS YOU POSSIBLY CAN LIKE YOU'RE ALREADY WONDERFULLY DOING! YOU'RE AWESOME, YOU'RE IMPORTANT, YOU MATTER AND YOU'RE WORTH IT! THAT'S A PROMISE! PLEASE REMEMBER THAT AS MUCH AS YOU POSSIBLY CAN BECAUSE IT IS ABSOLUTELY TRUE! KEEP FIGHTING AS MUCH AS YOU POSSIBLY CAN LIKE YOU'RE ALREADY WONDERFULLY DOING! .grouphug: