I had disturbing dream last night that I couldn't shake when I woke up. My mind kept thinking 'what if it is true?' even though I was also thinking that there was no rational way for the dream to be true. I don't like it when my mind battles itself like this. I don't like it when delusional thoughts find their way in even for a moment. It makes me fearful they will increase in frequency and I won't be able to realize they are delusions like when my episode occurred last year. My episode felt like I was stuck inside of a dream state that I couldn't break out of. I never want to feel that way again and last night felt a little bit like that for a few moments. I'm triggered.

I haven't remembered my dreams in months. All of a sudden I have been having vivid dreams for the past few days. I'd really like it to stop. I plan to do a better job setting my intention before I fall asleep tonight. I am hopeful that will help.