I spent the day out in a park with friends yesterday. I have known these friends for over 15 years and there was lots of conversation and food and it was a great day.

But I didn't enjoy it. It's like everything was gray colored. And I feel really guilty about feeling that way.

I should be enjoying things like this but I'm depressed and these activities are just not helping me get out of this low I'm in.

I'm just on my 4th day on 450 of Wellbutrin so no changes yet. Here's hoping it works this time. There are just a few weeks of summer left and it would be nice to see the beautiful days for what they are.