Hi everyone,


Im glad i stood my ground and kept my file open when my old therapist retired. I have had 3 really good sessions with the new therapist our scheduals have been off but now we plan on meeting every three weeks. There no doubt in me needing the help to resolve some trauma. I feel comfortable with her and i can tell she listens and so far has really helped me to feel better about myself. She wont let me dig into my past until i feel like it wont lead me into crisis.


With all that being said, im still having anxiety over some of the tings old t did and addiction counsellor. I am not proud that i stayed, but at that time i felt he was helping me because everyone else at the clinic felt the same way day program counsellors. I have a hard time believing that my file will continue to stay open, i fear that my old t the goals he had set is going to be put back in place.


1. Go to womens AA every week, get a sponsor and therapy will decrease.


For almost two years with him no matter what was going on in my life he always brought up AA and sponsoring. He knew that i finally was taking life more serious and im 20.5 months sober. He threaten to close my file. He started to blame me for not getting better. He got me to attend a six week cbt course at the clinic a year and half ago hoping it would cure me. Every session went from every week one week with him the other with addiction counselor she dropped me six months into this mess. Went to every 5 weeks no matter what.


with this it has caused allot of problems with me feel so uneasy. Day program counsellor has been acting okay one week and then she gets kinda nasty towards me. It's almost like she still wants me to feel like it's not okay to feel like, im off the hook. I haven't brought this up with the new therapist, i have with my doctor. He just has been so helpful getting to keep my file open and so very understanding.


I just feel so uneasy, and i still want to go to therapy she is helping me, but i feel my old t really hurt me and i feel guilty. I don't know if this post makes sense so please feel free to ask me questions. I still feel very confused from all this. Thank you for reading