The focus is yourself right now, @Bipolarchic14! Focus on your own health! KEEP FIGHTING AS MUCH AS YOU POSSIBLY CAN! You can always thank them later if you wish to do so! I don't think you have anything to apologize for! After all, you've done nothing wrong! Still, it's your choice. Just stay safe and take GREAT care of yourself, the care that you need and deserve! In short, I agree with ALL the other wise, wonderful posters! Sending many safe, warm hugs to you, @Bipolarchic14, your Family, your Friends, your Colleagues and ALL of your Dear Wonderful Loved Ones! KEEP FIGHTING AND KEEP ROCKING AS MUCH AS YOU POSSIBLY CAN LIKE YOU'RE ALREADY WONDERFULLY DOING! YOU'RE AWESOME, YOU'RE IMPORTANT, YOU MATTER, YOU'RE WONDERFUL AND YOU'RE WORTH IT! THAT'S A PROMISE! PLEASE BELIEVE THAT AND REMEMBER THAT AS MUCH AS YOU POSSIBLY CAN BECAUSE IT IS ABSOLUTELY TRUE! KEEP FIGHTING AND KEEP ROCKING AS MUCH AS YOU POSSIBLY CAN LIKE YOU'RE ALREADY WONDERFULLY DOING! PLEASE NEVER GIVE HOPE! YOU MUST ALWAYS KEEP FIGHTING!