Yeah, I know it probably won't "heal" me, assuming that is even possible, in its respect. My issue are the very questions posed. If someone asks me, "how are you doing"?, my brain fails to process the words to communicate them. If the psychiatrist asks how a medication has affected my mood over the course of a month, that seems relative to me so I freeze. Normally, at this point my wife offers how she sees her viewpoint of my actions as it relates to that medication. Asking how I 'feel' seems moot simply because I don't often feel emotions as everyone seems to enjoy them. My psychiatrist wants me to try either individual or group psychotherapy for my rage and intrusive thoughts but I can't convince myself to do this because I have a difficult time speaking in these situations. It would be a stalemate and/or possible anxiety inducing.