I'm not in therapy anymore. And, in fact, I've really never done much in terms of therapy at all. I've tried seeing a few therapists for brief periods. But it never really amounted to anything. The last therapist I saw was the best of the lot though. I recall her asking me, during one of our sessions, what I needed. And, like you, I could only think to say: "I don't know." And this is one of the reasons I don't expect to ever return to therapy.
For one thing, there are some things... important things... I simply could never ever talk about. The humiliation meter would be off the charts! But also, as I once told another therapist I spoke with briefly, "I know what my options are. I just don't like any of them." So, at least in my case, if I'm not willing to at least consider the possibility of making changes in my life, then what's the point of being in therapy; because, at least to my mind, the goal of therapy isn't simply to talk, talk, talk about one's problems but rather to make it possible for one to make positive changes in one's day-to-day life.
So with all that said... perhaps what's going on with you in therapy is that you don't yet see if or how therapy can lead to you making positive, constructive changes in your life? Perhaps you haven't yet figured out what positive, constructive changes would look like? Perhaps you have yet to figure out what it is (behaviors or life circumstances) need to be changed? Realistically I don't know you nor do I know anything about your situation. So I can only offer up some possible explanations based on my own admittedly brief experiences with therapy. But perhaps what you need to do is to take a look at your past & present life circumstances & figure out what changes need to occur to make your life more satisfying for you. And if that's not something you feel able to do, perhaps that's what you need help with in therapy at present. At least those are my thoughts with regard to your post.
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"I may be older but I am not wise / I'm still a child's grown-up disguise / and I never can tell you what you want to know / You will find out as you go." (from: "A Nightengale's Lullaby" - Julie Last)
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