Well....I told him about 2 years ago when I did a lot of crazy things, binging on food, driving crazy, spending money....and worst of all, cheating on my husband. That was 2 years ago, I had just started on anti-depressants for the first time ever, and I was severely hormonal and depressed.

I did NOT tell him about these same things happening again...only it was just this past few months, and I have nothing to "blame" it on this time. I'm just a horrible person doing horrible things. It's not an illness, I'm just evil.

The thing 2 years ago makes him think Bipolar. But Bipolar wouldn't make me plan weeks in advance to meet a guy. I'm just trying to blame my issues on some illness that doesn't exist....and I'm too scared to admit it!

Ugh. I have an appointment tonight. I really need to get this out there...