I try so hard not to reach out to you when I am struggling. I know you have a history of not always responding to me (except when T passed and you were amazing). The last couple of weeks have been really painful but I have white knuckled it and refrained for texting or calling you. Today I couldnt do it any more so texted a message asking for a xouple of minutes of your time. You completely ignored me. Just like my dad ignored me for so many years. This is all after a session where we discussed me needing connection with people and sbandonment. Eventually I decided that my dad didnt care about me and wrote him off. Right now I want to skip our appointment tomorrow.....next week you are on vacation. I there somebody out there who can helo me through this hell??