Saw my pdoc today. After a brief discussion on PTSD and how I can move forwards from here we agreed my meds are spot on. However, we did talk about my lack of creativity and its possible link to Lithium. Right now I can’t risk coming off Lithium but if the Bipolar stays stable for some time I might.

So basically I’m doing well but I’m very fragile. I can’t handle much stress so I have to be careful. I’m free from others controlling me finally but I often still don’t feel safe. Being free and in control of my life is new to me. Tomorrow I see my T. It will be great to continue chatting with him about all this. I’m so ****ing lost. It hurts.