Will explain later--headed out the door in a minute. The main thing is, it's really not just about the standing up, which I said. I know something else is going on with me, and I want to focus on exploring that. It was partly T's tone in session yesterday as well--really, throughout the session, even before I brought up this topic (which was at like the halfway point). Maybe it's partly because he'd been away and we weren't connected. I feel a lot of it though was having seen R for two sessions, and she has a very different style, so it just highlighted what has felt lacking (overall, not just yesterday) regarding him.