I second EVERYTHING that Open Eyes has said, @Twinmama831! I am DEEPLY SORRY for what you're going through! Please be kind to yourself. It seems like BOTH you and your Husband are already considering Divorce or Separation. It hurts but sometimes it's just the best choice for EVERYONE involved. Please allow yourself to take time to grieve your loss and try to se a professional if you aren't already seeing one. You deserve to get better! I hope writing here is of some comfort to you. If it can help, my Inbox is ALWAYS open for you and everyone. Feel free to PM me ANYTIME when you need to talk! Sending many safe, warm hugs to BOTH you, @Twinmama831, Your Family, Your Friends and ALL Of Your Loved Ones!