(((((((Razzleberry)))))))) Not a part of the church; just wanted to let you know I understand where you are coming from and offer my support.

Try not to feel guilty for falling short of others expectations. We often spend alot of precious time trying to live upto the bar others have set. And it seems most of the time we fall short. It is what we expect of ourselves that truly matters. We know ourselves better than another could. We know our capabilities and the intentions of our heart. This is what truly matters, IMO.