Maybe this is one reason that some people, once we get to know each other a little and I think we're getting to be friends, have just all of a sudden and for no reason that I could see, gotten really really angry at me and very critical and then dropped the friendship. It's happened often enough that I'd begun to see it as a pattern, not happening with every new acquaintance -- thank goodness! -- but enough that it ceased to surprise me even when I didn't understand it.

I know I have some psychological issues. I can't help it, and sometimes I feel exhausted trying to function despite them.

Basically now I'm too old to bother trying to make any new friends.

Or maybe, instead, I'm too wise to bother myself with trying.