Hello wantlovee: I see this is your first post here on PC. So... welcome to Psych Central. One additional forum, here on PC, that may be of interest to you would be the survivors of abuse forum. Here's a link:

https://psychcentralforums.com/survivors-of-abuse/

And then here are links to 10 articles from Psych Central's archives. The first 4 are on attachment styles & the effects of childhood trauma on relationships. The remaining 6 provide insights into, & suggestions for getting the most out of, your first therapy appointment:

What Is Attachment and Why Is It Important?

How to Change Your Attachment Style

How Childhood Trauma Affects Adult Relationships

Healing Your Inner Child

https://psychcentral.com/lib/your-fi...erapy-session/

https://psychcentral.com/blog/3-tips...dium=popular17

https://blogs.psychcentral.com/pract...ow-to-prepare/

https://psychcentral.com/blog/10-int...dium=popular17

https://psychcentral.com/blog/talk-t...dium=popular17

https://psychcentral.com/blog/video-...erapy-session/

I hope you find PC to be of benefit.