At the end you added a question mark. That to me is significant. Does it mean that you are questioning what you are doing?
Have you tried to seek out non-sexual relationships?
For some when we give up sex with many people, we find life. An abundance of better days. That's what I have found and I haven't been with anyone in 13 months.
If you have questions you can pm me or write here. I have no issues with answering questions.