Thank you slumberkitty, i plan on talking to her about this, it's something i need to talk about and somehow be able to move on. I am just get so anxious just thinking about it and i hope when i do talk to her about it she can be of help to me. My hope too is that this wont effect the therapy i have now and if i don't talk about it and keep letting my emotions get to me it probably could. Just a little anxious of how to bring it up without her feeling like im going to accuse the whole clinic or something like that.


Every month it gets easier with out the alcohol. I have my husband and dog that helps allot to have support here at home. Also keeping busy and finding other interests hobbies have been the biggest thing to help and online support. I think the biggest thing will be dealing with why i felt the need to numb the pain will help in the long run.


I am glad i did not run and trusted my gp to help me stay through the course. It's been a very long and tiring couple of years, but im thankful i have a good therapist so far she has been there for me. Also it helps when i do take responsibility for my life and i try to use what helps me. Thank you for listening hugs