I had extensive trauma and don't really trust anyone. I didn't "survive" it, I was raised in it. But I believe in the goodness of people. I believe that because *I* am a good person. I see good people around me all the time. I know it is human nature to seek connection with others, and to bond with others. I see in myself that I am too afraid to bond with others because of my experiences. But I see that other people can bond, and that it appears to be genuine and safe. But I cannot do it.
Yes, I know there are some truly awful human beings in the world. There always will be. But I think on the whole most human beings are just trying to do the best they can and have good intent. Even though most are good some are incredibly awful.
Yes, I think I am missing out on a lot of good stuff because I won't risk any more of the bad.