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I am sorry that you feel pain. That you were ignored, abused.
I'm sorry that you were not listened to, heard or validated.
I am sorry that you had to grow up with fear and abuse. That you had to feel blame.
The shame and humiliation;
the invalidation and gaslighting.
The physical and mental scars,
feeling unworthy and helpless.
For that I want you to know that I am sorry.
I am sorry your childhood was robbed and that you felt alone.
I am sorry that you missed out on love and contentment.
That you were scared or miniscule; that you lacked protection and warmth.
I am sorry that you do not have support. I am sorry that you were abandoned in your time of need.
I feel for you very deeply and I want you to be understood.
I am sorry that your experiences have caused you pain.
I am sorry that you did not receive adequate medical care.
I am sorry that you did not receive mental health support.
I am sorry if you doubt yourself or feel like you are crazy. I am sorry your parents did not love and support you.
I am sorry you were physically harmed and emotionally wounded.
I am sorry that those closest to you are the ones that hurt you most, and it some cases those people are your children.
I am sorry that the professionals did not help you; that they took advantage of you and abused you and traumatized you. That they made things worse instead of better and caused you further harm.
That they made you doubt yourself, hate yourself, want to harm yourself. That you took all your feelings and released them in an angry burst of anguish against yourself.
I am sorry no one has ever listened to you or been patient with you. I am sorry you had to defend yourself and be your own sense of protection. I am sorry you taste the salty tears on a regular basis.
I am sorry the world is so cruel and that you can't count on anyone. I am sorry you are alone and feel insignificant.
I am sorry for the emotional chaos and unsteadiness.
I am sorry there have been so many casualties. I am sorry there is so much wreckage in your past.
I am sorry for the lack of hugs, kisses and any positive physical contact. I am sorry the arms that were supposed to hug you, harmed you. I am sorry if you feel your potential is wasted or feel incapable of love.
I am sorry you were not cherished.
I am sorry you are not appreciated.
I am sorry you feel pain and loneliness.
You are not alone.
I am sorry if you feel like your own worst enemy.
I am sorry people turned their backs on you and I am sorry you feel like your very soul is breaking.
I am sorry he broke your heart, that she used you and that they bullied you.
I am so very sorry.
You are not alone.
I. Am. Sorry.
I know what I have to say can never take the place of what you need or want. I know that I am just some goofy, sappy girl on the internet but I feel very strongly that sometimes just reading and digesting, even from a stranger can give you a modicum of peace.
Hugs to you all.
Love to you all.
Put that bat down.... you have beaten yourself up enough already.
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"I carried a watermelon?"
President of the no F's given society.
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