I know I should be able to count on my adult kids for support when I am in a really bad place but from previous experience, I just can't.
In the past when I had an absolute melt down with daily suicidal thoughts, my kids reaction was, oh you are always whinging about something OR We won't come over while you are in a mood. At one point my daughter in law told me I was a terrible mother and grandmother and uninvited me to my grandchildren christening.
We have made amends somewhat bit I am worried I will get the same treatment if I tell them about my current situation which is a repeat of the last one albeit not as severe.
Any tips on how I can approach them without feeling worse about myself?