I asked my therapist if I could hug him someday. He said "yeah, sure!" I didn't ask for a hug right then, I wasn't ready, so told him "not today, someday." He said "ok, I'll give you a virtual hug for now." I thought that was cute.

Then during our last session, he brought it up and asked why I asked, why I wanted to hug him. I told him I was curious if he would be ok with it and then I asked him if he was worried about something. He said he was trying to figure out if a hug would be good for my therapy or will it complicate my feelings for him. He then asked how I thought I would feel one I hugged him and walked out the door, what will that do to me. I told him I didn't know...I really don't think It would be a big deal, but still said I didn't know because even if something's bad for me, if I want it, I won't say it's bad. He changed the subject then.

I'm starting to wonder if he just wants me to come to the conclusion that it's bad so he wouldn't have to reject me. But it bothers me. I would rather him be honest and just say "no." I don't want him to feel like he has to hug me, but I don't want to deal with rejection either... Probably wasn't even worth it to ask. It seems like a lose/lose situation now and it bums me out.